Not an Organic Fairy Tale - stories about real life shit

They say that confidence is a stain you can’t wipe off. And by they I mean a lyric to a Lil’ Wayne rap song, highly credible words of wisdom. I want to ponder this though because I think it’s a powerful statement. Unfortunately a common theme for women is to lack confidence in the work place, and maybe that’s an unfair statement and I’m over generalizing, but this is my blog and that’s been my perception of women I’ve met over the years. In my adolescent and teen years I was anything but confident, I was the perfect illustration of awkward; clothes that didn’t fit my body type, unkempt bangs, greasy pony tails, glasses and braces to boot. But as I got older and grew into my own, I started growing this little seed of confidence. I can’t really say when, or why, but I can certainly recall events that helped solidify it. Leading my own company for almost 10 years really cemented in that confidence – and sometimes I might have over done it. But this is not the time for airing out all my ...

I’ve been afraid to write. Not because I didn’t have anything to say, but because emotional imbalance since the M word (mortality) has been at an all time high. I reached such a point of desperation that I dug out an old prescription of Xanax that was three years past its expiration date. It still worked by the way.   I’m not going to relive all the grisly details of the painful and terrifying thoughts I’ve experienced over the past couple of weeks, instead I want to focus on the positive. I worked through all 9 steps of my project plan (see the last blog post) and the most relief came from seeing the general surgeon that operates on the oncology/melanoma patients. The punch line is, I have a serious problem, but we can fix it, and he’s confident that I’ll live a long and healthy live. I feel like I have a second chance at life. The sun seems brighter (not that I should be in the sun, but you get what I mean), I am more present with my family, and I have vowed to not let life pas...