The Cleanse



I’ve never done a juice cleanse before. I have zero desire to deprive myself of delicious solid foods and instead substitute for celery juice laced with parsley and a liquified carrot. I’m not really one for diets either, I’ve always believed that moderation is key - you can have the cream filled donut, but you don’t need 2 and you certainly don’t need it every weekend. 


Now, this is not to say that I don’t love going to the local juice bar with my 2 year old and getting a freshly squeezed juice when it’s 100 degrees out. We do this often and I love a sweet greens juice every once in awhile and I rely on them for her to get the only vegetables she’ll ingest, but I’m not about to go all dramatic and do a cleanse. 


Despite all this, I feel that it is time for a different kind of cleanse. I have been cleansing from all forms of media. That’s right, I’m on a facebook, instagram, and general news hiatus. It’s not that I’m ignorant and want to be in the dark about what’s going on in the world, it’s more that I’ve read and heard too much about what’s going on in the world and it’s impacting my mental health. 


I have no intention of this blog post becoming a platform to give you my political stance, and I have zero soap boxes to stand on with my opinions. I just want to call to attention the impact that the negativity and the tragic - apocalyptic perspective of the media can have on you. And remember that media money is based on ratings, and ratings are based on viewings, and a boring new story about a panda bear born at the local zoo just doesn’t sell like the sensationalized scorched earth news we are seeing today. 


I have never classified myself as someone that struggles with anxiety, but lately I feel like it is crashing in on all sides with these ridiculous anxieties of “what if” and spiraling obsessive compulsive fears from all that’s happening in the world. 


So instead of scrolling through my phone like a fucking zombie and filling my mind with the more negativity and recycling everyone else’s panic, I just let it go - cold turkey. I’m sure I’ll come back around when someone has a baby and I need to see pics, or when I feel like I need a fix of funny memes, but for now I’m just going to be present with my family and focus on ways that I can be positive and take care of myself and my loved ones without the toxicity from everyone else. This doesn’t make any of the scary stuff in the world go away, but the mind is incredibly powerful - and if more people spent less time reading about everyone else’s crap they’d probably find ways to be more positive in their life too.  That’s bold of me to say, coming from someone that’s writing my own crap on a blog. 

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